As I continue to get older, I never actually feel it mentally.
I have these moments where I will be so lost in thought that I forget everything around me. It usually is me feeling like a little kid again. I start thinking over my life that I went through school, made friends, had hardships, went to high school, did plays/musicals, cheerleading, ran cross country, graduated from seminary, graduated from high school, bought my first car, moved out on my own, fell in love, got married, now... BOUGHT A HOUSE!
Can I just tell you that even the getting married deal, I just feel like I'm not quite old enough to be married. Ask anyone not LDS or outside of Utah and they would say that getting married at 19 isn't old enough. But it happened. Its done, and frankly their opinion of the matter doesn't effect me.
Anyways, am I the only person who does this?
You just completely look back and think, "I'm not old enough to have done all this!"
I am so completely blissfully happy with my life, but I just would have never imagined this all would happen.
When I was younger and I looked at all of the "older" girls that were married they just seemed like they were.. well older. I'm not feeling that. I feel like a little immature little teenager sometimes.
Sometimes Jake and I will be at family parties and we'll start playing with the little babies. Then we'll come home and he'll start talking about having kids. When I think about having kids, all I can think is am I old enough to be a mom?
I know it's all in timing and when I am ready.
But really, please say I'm not the only one!
Okay, this was a ramble post. Forgive me
Haha, and my husband is just the opposite, he says other people's children are his birth control and he's not ready and I'm like, "I want to be a mommy!!!!"
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I sometimes feel like Jake is the same way! haha, but I have for sure calmed down on wanting a baby! Maybe a super cute chunky kid will come along and He will just have to have a baby!! (thats almost where Jake is!)
DeleteJared just feels old (he's turning 25 this year) and I feel like my life is really starting to become what I've always dreamed it would be. But I'm also 23. I am way excited to be a mom someday, but I get nervous because I worry that I won't be ready. But then I also have to remember that no one is ever really ready. They just learn as they go along. That's how I feel about getting older and all of this stuff happening. I feel like I'm finally just learning. I do agree with you though about looking back at all that has happened in life. Jared and I were just talking the other day about how crazy it is that all this stuff has happened and it feels like such a sort amount of time when you are looking back! Does that make sense?
ReplyDeleteIt totally makes sense! But You are so right. You learn as you go! That is for sure how married life went! haha.
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